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		<title>In a nutshell &#8211; Part 1 &#8211; peanuts</title>
		<link>http://depressionetal.wordpress.com/2009/11/27/in-a-nutshell-part-1-peanuts/</link>
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		<pubDate>Fri, 27 Nov 2009 17:04:50 +0000</pubDate>
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Okay, so I&#8217;ve been struggling to make regular blog posts here for a few weeks. I&#8217;ve got brain fog a lot of the time. I haven&#8217;t got the faculties or desire to attempt essay-length, coherent posts. So, forthwith, I&#8217;m going to do &#8216;nutshell&#8217; posts.
Right then.
Things keeping me sane at the moment:
Television programs. When one lacks [...]<img alt="" border="0" src="http://stats.wordpress.com/b.gif?host=depressionetal.wordpress.com&blog=6267354&post=3215&subd=depressionetal&ref=&feed=1" />]]></description>
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		<title>A Howl and a Roar</title>
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		<pubDate>Tue, 24 Nov 2009 22:19:51 +0000</pubDate>
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The weather, that is.  Gale and flood warnings abound recently.  Right now the rain is pelting the window pane.  I&#8217;m always quite thankful that I&#8217;ve never lived in an area that gets the terrible floods or property damage.
That&#8217;s a really shitty, short post, but I got nothing else to say at the minute.  I go [...]<img alt="" border="0" src="http://stats.wordpress.com/b.gif?host=depressionetal.wordpress.com&blog=6267354&post=3212&subd=depressionetal&ref=&feed=1" />]]></description>
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		<title>1am, innit?</title>
		<link>http://depressionetal.wordpress.com/2009/11/17/1am-innit/</link>
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		<pubDate>Tue, 17 Nov 2009 01:26:48 +0000</pubDate>
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This piece of writing is brought to you by the mind of a reluctant insomniac.  I like to deny my insomnia as much as possible.  I feel that by denying it exists I will in some way *poof* it out of existence, the Paul Daniels of sleep magic.
Yet, at some point during the night I [...]<img alt="" border="0" src="http://stats.wordpress.com/b.gif?host=depressionetal.wordpress.com&blog=6267354&post=3208&subd=depressionetal&ref=&feed=1" />]]></description>
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		<title>Anxiety/thoughts/self-esteem</title>
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		<pubDate>Tue, 10 Nov 2009 20:07:21 +0000</pubDate>
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My moods generally fluctuate quite a lot, at least I feel like they do.  I&#8217;m having a mini-meltdown here so I&#8217;ll pop the rest of this post behind a readmore so you can avoid reading about my angst if need be.
Okay, to those who remain, I&#8217;ll begin.  I have had a shit day.  I am aware [...]<img alt="" border="0" src="http://stats.wordpress.com/b.gif?host=depressionetal.wordpress.com&blog=6267354&post=3206&subd=depressionetal&ref=&feed=1" />]]></description>
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		<title>Sunset</title>
		<link>http://depressionetal.wordpress.com/2009/11/08/sunset/</link>
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		<pubDate>Sun, 08 Nov 2009 17:28:22 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description><![CDATA[Regarding my last post, I didn&#8217;t make it out for Halloween in the end.  There was one less creature of evil prowling the local bars last Saturday.  I am a bit disappointed, but I know I wouldn&#8217;t have enjoyed it the way I was feeling.  I was just coming out of a depression that had [...]<img alt="" border="0" src="http://stats.wordpress.com/b.gif?host=depressionetal.wordpress.com&blog=6267354&post=3160&subd=depressionetal&ref=&feed=1" />]]></description>
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		<title>Halloween &#8211; who knows&#8230;</title>
		<link>http://depressionetal.wordpress.com/2009/10/31/halloween-who-knows/</link>
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		<pubDate>Sat, 31 Oct 2009 13:56:17 +0000</pubDate>
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Happy Halloween! to anyone who cares to receive that greeting.
I&#8217;ve no idea where today will take me.  Yesterday was a wash-out.  I cancelled going to the cinema with my friend because my mood just felt too low.  It&#8217;s always an inaccurate science, that of deciding whether it will do me more good to force myself [...]<img alt="" border="0" src="http://stats.wordpress.com/b.gif?host=depressionetal.wordpress.com&blog=6267354&post=3200&subd=depressionetal&ref=&feed=1" />]]></description>
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		<title>Diary/Complementary therapy/feeling sad</title>
		<link>http://depressionetal.wordpress.com/2009/10/30/diarycomplementary-therapyfeeling-sad/</link>
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		<pubDate>Fri, 30 Oct 2009 14:20:42 +0000</pubDate>
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Feeling rather unmotivated today.  It&#8217;s Halloween tomorrow; I like Halloween.  Still feel sad.  If I were standing outside myself I might come upto myself, grab myself by the shoulders, shake profusely, and bellow &#8216;what the hell is the matter with you?&#8217;
I have a feeling my response would be a subdued &#8216;don&#8217;t really know&#8230;&#8217;
One thing I&#8217;ve [...]<img alt="" border="0" src="http://stats.wordpress.com/b.gif?host=depressionetal.wordpress.com&blog=6267354&post=3189&subd=depressionetal&ref=&feed=1" />]]></description>
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		<title>non-stick</title>
		<link>http://depressionetal.wordpress.com/2009/10/28/non-stick/</link>
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		<pubDate>Wed, 28 Oct 2009 21:40:10 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description><![CDATA[context: written a couple of days ago:
Drifts drifts drifts
softly as they intend
movement unthinking
soft falls
eventual
whirr fall drift
move
cold frothing snow
drifts lightly
tumble-moving
I had a friend talk me through their suicidal motives yesterday.  We&#8217;re neither in a good place.  I realise more than ever that the world is not mine to hold steadfast in one-view-gaze.  His reasons, his motives, [...]<img alt="" border="0" src="http://stats.wordpress.com/b.gif?host=depressionetal.wordpress.com&blog=6267354&post=3156&subd=depressionetal&ref=&feed=1" />]]></description>
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		<title>I&#8217;m thinking&#8230;</title>
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		<pubDate>Wed, 28 Oct 2009 18:40:36 +0000</pubDate>
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I&#8217;ve been wondering about my history and wondering how much of a role it has played in developing me as I am today.  One can never know just how much of what has happened has contributed to what is.
I think I&#8217;m roughly what I would have been had circumstances been different.  And yet&#8230;  And yet, [...]<img alt="" border="0" src="http://stats.wordpress.com/b.gif?host=depressionetal.wordpress.com&blog=6267354&post=3179&subd=depressionetal&ref=&feed=1" />]]></description>
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		<title>afros, flares and swirly stuff</title>
		<link>http://depressionetal.wordpress.com/2009/10/26/afros-flares-and-swirly-stuff/</link>
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		<pubDate>Mon, 26 Oct 2009 20:13:45 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description><![CDATA[ 
As I&#8217;m not feeling too great at present, thought I&#8217;d post something written a while back.  I&#8217;ve got a habit of writing things and then leaving them rather than editing and posting.  Ah well.  This was written after my friend&#8217;s 1970&#8217;s-themed birthday night.  From 12.09.09:
I had The Dress.  I had The Shoes.  I had..The Wig.  [...]<img alt="" border="0" src="http://stats.wordpress.com/b.gif?host=depressionetal.wordpress.com&blog=6267354&post=2979&subd=depressionetal&ref=&feed=1" />]]></description>
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