This is actually a post I wrote on February 12th, 2009. I’ve decided to make it a page because the idea is I’m going to document One Positive Thing I’ve done everyday. I might miss days out but it’s really a way of helping me to acknowledge achievements, especially when I’m depressed. There’s no minimum level I’m expecting of myself. One day getting out of bed might be my Thing for the day and another day might be completing a three mile run. If anyone wants to join me feel free to leave your own comments of anything positive you’ve done today. Here’s the original post (I’ve cut a few bits out):
This post is going to be resolutely positive, not because I feel positive, but because if you feel depressed the very first step for most people, from the severely depressed to the mildly depressed, is to incorporate some positivity into your life.
Okay, this is how it works. I’m going to do ONE THING each day that is positive. I’m then going to acknowledge that I have done that thing and praise myself for taking that step. I’m not putting rules on what sort of thing that has to be at the moment because a) I don’t feel like it and b) it doesn’t take into account that one day might be tougher than another to complete this task.
So, I’ll start with yesterday. Yesterday I felt depressed but there was some agitation there which gave me energy.
Yesterday my positive thing was hoovering one half of my bedroom. I also spoke to my Mum about how I was feeling, acknowledging my current status. I also did a little bit of yoga on DVD. My positive thing for today is: I made a phonecall to my volunteer job to say I needed a couple of weeks off. I’m counting this as my ‘positive’ because it was a phonecall I was dreading, wanted to put off and it was stressing me out. I know I don’t feel well, I know I need a break but I’m scared of backsliding so I was conflicted about my decision to say the least. But I did it. I made the call.
I’d like to be able to say by the end of today that I’ve also been out of the house for a walk. I don’t know if I will yet and I do already have my positive thing for today in the bank but I could do with fresh air, leaving the house and a little walk, maybe just to the DVD shop ten minutes from my house.
Will let you know…
p.s. I think the act of blogging here is positive, for the moment at least. It’s like having a mini-project assembling a page and it’s a vehicle for expressing difficult emotions. Maybe by seeing what I’ve written in front of me I might get more ideas or insight or something…